I have natal Sun conjunct Chiron in Aquarius. By transit, Chiron will almost conjoin Chiron, and Neptune almost conjoin the Sun this year. It’s a double transit, and it’s already in full swing (see my blog of 28 April). It seems to centering around this wounded limb I’ve been dragging behind me all of my adult life: my inability to fully leave behind the very restrictive, materialist values I grew up around, a feeling of always being on the defensive, a continual judging of myself for not living by those values. It seems, at long last, to be sorting.
The other night I did a Tarot reading for a friend (I often do a combination of astro-update and Tarot for people, it gives them a very full picture), and then I got him and Vajramala to look and comment while I did one for myself. The card that said the most to me was the Moon reversed, in the position of what is not clear to oneself.
This was the perfect card for a Neptune transit. The Moon card says you are in the womb of the unconscious, the Neptunian equivalent of the transformational Pluto underworld journey. The reversal of the card said that I was experiencing the confusion that can come with this. Suddenly all was clear, so to speak. Because while on a day-to-day level things are quite straightforward, the bigger picture around what I am doing and where I am going just seems to have been getting more confused. And with a Neptune transit that’s often part of the deal.
So the next thing was to see if I could somehow approach that confusion. Time to try an Australian Bush Remedy. These remedies work for me and I found myself reading up about Mint Bush. Here was what Ian White said:
“Mint Bush is for the trials and tribulations that one goes through just prior to, or at the same time as, spiritual initiation. It is for the period when you feel you are being tested, often to your limits. There is the burning off of all the dross to allow you to emerge to a new spiritual level. Often at this time there is chaos and confusion, and there can even be a sense of being in a void. Many people find their old beliefs and values obsolete, falling like crumbling stone pillars around them… What also comes tumbling down, once these pillars have been removed, are the old structures that they have set up, and around which they have built their lives.”
This described my emerging position pretty well. As often happens when moving things on by magical means (which is how I view these remedies), it started working before I’d taken it, as I walked to the shop to buy it. I was walking taller, there was a spring in my step.
This was only yesterday, but out of the necessary period of confusion is emerging clarity and relief. There is suddenly a real distance emerging between me and that old wound, it’s starting to feel like it’s gone, it’s been left behind on the roadside. It’s only the beginning of my double transit, and I reckon what’s happening is probably much bigger than is yet clear to me. It’s not just about one bit of me sorting, it’s going to feed through into everything else. And that’s going to take a while. It’s wonderful.